2016

New Year 2016! Nearly here! All of us only have five days left of 2015 in which to finish our resolutions and plan the new ones! If we’re being honest…I didn’t really set any goals for 2015…and it shows through what I accomplished.

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  • Pay off all debt except student loans (but get it down to 10k)
  • Only eat meat & drink diet soda on weekends
  • Eat clean and exercise (lose weight & run a half-marathon)
  • Get into graduate school or take more courses
  • Do yoga consistently
  • Get all dental work taken care of & buy a “new” car

Those are the things I would like to achieve in 2016. I know I already mentioned that Z told me that doing trumps planning, but may of these things are mindful, and in my opinion require some sort of game plan or they won’t get accomplished.

Game plan

  1. Pay off all debt except student loans (but get it down to 10k) – I have set up my student loans to automatically withdraw $200/month. I currently owe $12,607.15 and will make an additional payment of $207.15 in order to bring the total down to $10k. 
  2. Only eat meat & drink diet soda on weekends – This one is pretty self-explanatory. I plan on replacing animal proteins during the week for health and budgetary reasons. I’ll replace diet soda with diet green tea C will get at CostCo because it’s delicious. That and I ordered a Nalgene bottle. I’m going to drink 2 bottles of water a day as well. Because health and such.
  3. Eat clean and exercise (lose weight & run a half-marathon) – I know “eating clean” is pretty much just a buzz phrase at this point. I personally mean to eat mindfully. I will not eat out constantly or buy desserts (e.g. Little Debbie cakes and those sugar cookies with the icing on top). I already said I would cut down on meat. This also includes just sugar and sodium in general. I will do the Couch to 5K and Run Disney programs to train for running.
  4. Get into graduate school or take more courses – I am applying for a Master of Science degree in Mathematics & Physics, but if I don’t get accepted, I will take at least 3 courses this year either digitally or over the summer. I would also like to take a course in American Sign Language at the Louisiana School for the Deaf.
  5. Do yoga consistently – Every morning post-workout.
  6. Get all dental work taken care of & buy a “new” car – I would ideally like to get this done before October, which is when my deductible resets. I need all of my wisdom teeth plus a molar out, and many many fillings replaced. My car is on its last legs. I’m hoping that it can last through September, which LearnVest claims is the ideal time to purchase a new car.

Each month I will have mini-goals to accomplish, and also steps to take toward the above. I am still processing through how I will do these things, but I know the more I focus on things, the more aware I will be of my actions as I take them.

For last year’s words belong to last year’s language / And next year’s words await another voice. – T.S. Eliot 

Happy Christmas Eve

fdc9c0dd81471c440efb2c884f03ee6eWith weather consistently staying in the 70’s and 80’s, it really doesn’t feel like Christmastime down here in Louisiana. I shouldn’t be able to walk around barefoot in shorts and a tank top, but I could if I weren’t sitting here typing inside in the A/C.

Merry Festivus to all, and to all a good year! 

I still have some tasks to accomplish for December, but I’ve really been focusing on what I want to accomplish in 2016. I have a comprehensive list of things that would be nice to do; however, I need a plan to get it done! Although as Z told me earlier, Plans are ok. Doing stuff is better. 


  • Pay off all debt except student loans (but get that under 10k)
  • Only eat meat & drink soda on weekends
  • Eat clean and exercise (lose weight & run a half-marathon)
  • Get into graduate school or take more courses 
  • Do yoga consistently
  • Buy a “new” car
  • Get my wisdom teeth out and my fillings fixed

So far that’s all I have…getting ready to create some tangible to-do lists to be able to get all of these things accomplished! Nearly Merry Christmas and Happy Festivus and hope y’all had a Happy Hanukkah and Wonderful Kwanzaa and in general a terrific day!!!

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2015 is nearly over with! I’m attempting a thirteen month year by starting my goal preparation for 2016 a little early. The premise is that instead of weeding out unreasonable goals and establishing habits in January, start a month early so you have 12 months of productivity instead of 11. When I first read about this, it seemed so obvious that I felt silly for not thinking of it before then. From trying to be more mindful, I already have a few things I’d like to accomplish in 2016. It’s exciting to start planning for a fresh start. I know any day can be a new beginning, but there’s something nice about it starting on 1/1. But here’s the progress on finishing out 2015!

Goals: 

  • Budget/Debt Repayment Plan
  • Purchase/Finish Christmas Gifts & Dad’s birthday gift
  • Go to Natchitoches Festival of Lights
  • Finish one bear for the Mother Bear Project
  • Work out 8 times at the gym
  • Read Half of a Yellow Sun

My parents’ gifts came in the mail! I got my mom a beautiful necklace of a figure holding her three children and a stool with a bag of gardening tools that snaps under it so that she can do work without having to be on her knees (the cartilage is worn pretty much completely away). My dad wanted cologne so he got Gucci – Made to Measure. For his birthday I got him a leatherbound collection of the Game of Thrones books. I was able to use an $8 gift card I got for doing a survey for Cox and a $10 gift card I got using My Coke Rewards. I finished Z’s Christmas gift (a 7 foot long double-sided scarf of the constant tau in green and cream (the colors I had used for his hat)). You can see him wearing it in the photos below! We went to the Natchitoches Christmas Festival this past weekend.

Many things went wrong for that trip (very late start due to a wreck backing up traffic), then a blowout, then wrong orders, and a lot of delays that meant we were on the road for about 8 hours instead of 3 to return home. But…despite some of the things that went wrong, so many things went right. We got to go see all these antiques and try different samples in the kitchen store. I was also able to show him where I went to boarding school and the library I had worked at. We ate at one of my favorite places from when I was a teenager, and he finally got to eat his Reuben (versus the night before, when they’d gotten his order wrong). Silly as this sounds, it was also really nice to see how we reacted to things going wrong. He was kind and positive the whole time. It made what could have been a bad situation so much easier 🙂 When we were sitting next to the river, a little bug fell on him (see below). We named him Henry! And then promptly released him into the “wild.”

The last thing that happened was he gave me my Christmas. After I got home (and he was at his own home learning topology), I opened it. And it was the Thug Kitchen Cookbook! I had never heard of it before, but I absolutely love to cook and bake, and it is very funny to read and the recipes are different than what it would occur to me to search on something like Pinterest. They’re healthy and vegetarian, and use ingredients I’m not as familiar with (e.g. lentils, quinoa, chick peas), so I’m very excited to try some of these! I have a cabbage and black eyed pea recipe picked out for New Year’s already!

So far, December has been a good month. I am finished with work, no one failed my classes, I’ve gotten to visit my family and spend time with Z and talk with other friends. Later this month I get to visit the WWII Museum in NOLA and have s’mores made in a fireplace! I hope everyone else’s December has been wonderful as well!

December

How did it get so late so soon? – Dr. Seuss

Designation Title I

I originally wrote this post back in May. It was after a mass cheating in my advanced math class resulted in giving 52 zero’s on their final exam. The resounding motto I heard in response was “Cheat or Repeat.” I still need to become more educated about what the new changes the “Every Student Succeeds Act” will bring to have an informed opinion, but the following is a [long] post about my opinions of the results of No Child Left Behind and and its shortcomings.


In many discussions about education, Title I has become a buzzword. Other hot topics in education, such as Common Core, show similar discourse, which leads to the following question: Do people actually understand what they are debating? Common Core is another topic entirely, but the amount of similar misinformation raises the question of whether Title I has been defined beyond the established stereotypes of dangerous, ghettorun-down, and undesirable.

Terminology

AN ACT To strengthen and improve educational quality and educational opportunities in the Nation’s elementary and secondary schools.

April 11, 1965 (H. R. 2365) Public Law 89-10

Title I is no new designation; it was created in 1965 by the Elementary and Secondary Education Act (ESEA). In the initial documents, it is stated that this should provide financial assistance to local educational agencies for the education of children of low-income families. In less subjective layman’s terms: public/private schools who have a population of 40% or more students from lower-income families (as designated by the US Census) are eligible to be considered Title I as per the US Department of Education. This means these schools can receive federal funding distributed through state agencies (e.g. department of education, district offices). Priority is given to schools making an effort to improve their performance but that have less funding and lower-achieving students.

When not given context, this definition has led to criticism. For instance, why should federal funds be used at the state level to fund schools based on a child’s fiscal situation? Students from lower-income families and communities are simply more at risk when placed in a school that is also disadvantaged. They have been exposed to emotional and social challenges, acute and chronic stressors, cognitive lags, and health and safety issues by virtue of their socioeconomic status. These students may have also been exposed to stressors as English as a Second Language (ESL) students or students from intervention programs who have experienced neglect or abuse.

It was clear even during the 1960’s that there were strong ties between school performance and the socioeconomic status of its students. There was a large gap between the performance of the two groups, and so ESEA was initially created to bridge the literacy/mathematics gap between disadvantaged children and those from more privileged households. There are countless studies, papers, and books on this subject. This sounds reasonable, so why are people upset about this? They probably are okay with the aspect of educating at-risk children, but this is where those stereotypes of ghetto and run-down have come from. Ghetto, specifically meaning a slum area of minorities, is an area that will have students who are at-risk and who may have behavioral problems. It is a lower-income area, so the schools will have less money, lower performance, and kids at risk of failure, abuse, or both.

No Child Left Behind

No Child Left Behind (NCLB) is an extension of ESEA (which needs to be renewed every five years and has been since its inception). Many teachers, administrators, and parents who have criticisms for the Title I status are actually at odds with additions made by NCLB, not with the foundation that ESEA laid. Each school must make Adequate Yearly Progress (AYP) as determined by several factors with consequences for failing at different intervals and in different areas. This portion of NCLB allows schools to be held responsible using quantitative data, which can be found on a school’s “report card.”

  • Percentage of students scoring at each proficiency level of state’s assessment (by subgroup)
  • Comparing school/district’s performances to state’s AYP goals
  • Percentage of students not tested
  • Two-year trends
  • Other indicators for AYP (as specified by state)
  • High school graduation rates
  • Teacher qualifications
  • If school is identified by the state/district for improvement

Being able to track this data is invaluable and allows the federal government (and state government) to make more educated decisions; however, it does come at a price.

Falling through the Cracks

While there is strong motivation and support to meet the lowest bar, there is virtually no support for students who are capable of achieving above and beyond. No incentives currently exist to create programs to foster students once they have reached the boundary of functionality as determined by the respective state, and there are no required programs for gifted students under NCLB. This does not mean they do not exist – some states have gone above and beyond to make sure their students are afforded these educational opportunities, but this is the exception, not the rule. Most states experienced severe cuts to the funding of gifted programs once it was clear they were not a federal priority.

Another concern is the shift of funding onto almost solely literacy/mathematics versus other subjects such as history, art, science, foreign language, and music. As a mathematics teacher who taught seniors how to work with negative numbers and fractions, I know that it is vital to teach our students how to analyze written work and analytically work with word problems; however, this has statistically been shown to be done at the expense of other subjects because of the risks associated with not reaching the bars set by NCLB, which requires 100% compliance and achievement.

Lastly, students with disabilities or who are (ESL) are being left behind in terms of useful data collection. What does this mean? Unlike with gifted students, NCLB does give incentives for schools to provide for students who need special accommodations as per their IEP/504 plans. Unless a students’ IEP/504 plan specifies otherwise, the student must take the same assessment as the general population.The amount of useful data that can be collected is at risk because the NCLB requires their data to be counted just as other students’ scores. This makes it difficult, if not impossible, to use data gathered from testing and the like to make decisions for the benefit of this group. These students’ disabilities also vary greatly in degree and classification, so their data being mixed in with the general students’ can skew it and compromise its integrity and usefulness.

One Size Fits All

NCLB’s requirement is for 100% compliance – meaning 100% of a school’s students must participate. ESEA’s original intention back in 1965 has stayed – level the playing field for disadvantaged children by not leaving them behind; however, by acting as if each child is a cookie cutter of the one before, it makes the system less effective and puts strain on the child, teacher, and parent. When a child is told they should be capable of something and they are not, it puts psychological strain on the child. It puts emotional strain on a parent to be told their child is not performing at level and should be. And it takes a toll on the teacher to be told that the child should  be learning this. This leads to all three questioning their competencies for not completing an impossible task. This also leads to schools operating under increased pressure and being put at risk of penalties for not being able to raise the achievement of students who do not have the capabilities necessary to perform at the level the state has mandated.

Playing the Game

After looking at the population of students who are being left behind just by nature of the system, the focus on data and terminology allows “creative” administrators and faculty to manipulate their data to avoid reprimand and maximize awards. Even outside of manipulating the data, the NCLB requires 95% of students to be assessed and up to 1% of students can be just declared proficient based on an alternative assessment. The data in some cases has been manipulated due to outside funding from for-profit sources.

Closing Remarks

As an educator, parent, or citizen, knowledge of what the actual shortcomings of NCLB and how they can affect a Title I school, and knowing what a Title I school actually is, is vital to engineering the success of a student. Many of the Title I schools are in run-down areas. Many of them are desperate for funding, have students who already have a criminal record, and have students who are incredibly disadvantaged, abused, at risk, and in need of support. The NCLB addition to the ESEA is in no way perfect, and it puts a lot of strain on the people involved. Its positives are fairly obvious and have been consistent for almost sixty years – provide funding for schools who have high populations of students in need to bridge the gap between them and students who are more privileged. The short-comings…the students who fall through the cracks, the pressures that children, their families, and their educators are put under, and the simple fact that schools are being driven to a lack of integrity to meet a quota are all causes for concern and discourse.


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Pumpkin Cheesecake

Yes, I know Minter is upon us…but I am still Team Pumpkin all the way! About a week ago, my friends hosted a Thanksgiving potluck we have deemed “Clansgiving,” because our many families have become one. I decided to attempt a pumpkin cheesecake this year, and I believe it was delicious!

Ingredients: 

  • Springform pan
  • Foil
  • Another (oven-safe) pot
  • Water
  • 1 c. graham-cracker crumbs
  • 3 tbsp. unsalted butter
  • 2 tbsp. sugar
  • 2 packages of cream cheese
  • 1 1/4 c. sugar
  • 1 can pure pumpkin (14 oz) *not pumpkin pie mix
  • 1 c. sour cream
  • 2 tsp. vanilla extract
  • 1 tsp. ground cinnamon
  • 1/2 tsp. ground allspice
  • 1/4 tsp. salt
  • 4 large eggs

Directions: 

  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. In a 9″x3″ springform pan, stir graham cracker crumbs, 3 tbsp. melted butter, and sugar. Press mixture onto bottom of the pan. Wrap the outside of the pan with foil to keep it from leaking. Bake the crust for 10 minutes. Cool on a wire rack.
  2. Beat together cream cheese until smooth at medium speed. Slowly beat in sugar (about 1 minute). You’ll need to scrape the sides and bottom every once in a while. At low speed,beat in pumpkin, sour cream, vanilla, cinnamon, allspice, and salt. Add the eggs, one at a time, beat until just blended after each one.
  3.  Pour the mix into the crust. Place an oven-safe pot of boiling water on the bottom rack. Place the springform pan on the top rack. Bake for 1 hour and 10 minutes.
  4. Remove cheesecake to wire rack, removing foil. Loosen the edges from the sides of the pan. Cool completely, cover, and refrigerate for at least 6 hours or overnight. Remove the sides of the pan and serve.

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It turned out really tasty – those who tried it said they liked it! It sank a bit from that picture to the right, but I plan on making it again! I wish I would have stirred it more (there were a few clumps of cream cheese), but other than that I am really happy with the results!

Cooking is like love. It should be entered into with abandon or not at all. – Harriet van Horne 

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It’s exactly like that. How is 2015 over with so quickly? Well, here we are, three days into December. So how did November end up?

Goals: 

  • Read Ender’s Shadow & Shadow of the Hegemon
  • Finish one bear for the Mother Bear Project
  • Budget attack & debt repayment plan
  • CLEAN AND UNPACK MY ENTIRE ROOM

75% is much higher than previous months! I’ve passively thought about debt repayment and have been aimlessly making payments (e.g. $600 toward my student loans), but I really need to buckle down. I’ve thought about contacting a financial adviser for help…but I really just need to buckle down. I’ve made a passive budget, but haven’t really stuck to it. I need to take control of this part of my life.

November

So December will hopefully continue this upward trend. So what would I like to accomplish?

Goals: 

  • Budget/Debt Repayment Plan
  • Purchase/Finish Christmas Gifts & Dad’s birthday gift
  • Go to Natchitoches Festival of Lights
  • Finish one bear for the Mother Bear Project
  • Work out 8 times at the gym
  • Read Half of a Yellow Sun

Blessed is the season which engages the whole world in a conspiracy of love. ― Hamilton Mabie

 

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I know Thanksgiving was yesterday, but I spent most of the day with my family and friends in some capacity. And as Cicero says, Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all others. I’m allowed to be thankful each day, including Black Friday, a pseudoholiday wrought with irony. This isn’t a challenge to any cosmic entities, but this year has been relatively quiet compared to past years – this has probably been the longest “break” experienced without tragedy since 2008. In 2008, my little brother had a cardiac aneurysm and died in my parents’ arms. I was 20, and he was 15…it was a difficult thing for my family to even attempt to come to terms with. From that point on, my struggles with anxiety and academia were exacerbated to the point of being unable to complete my coursework until help was sought. In October 2010, my 19 year old cousin was hit by a car on her college campus and died. This was a difficult thing for everyone, especially my parents, so soon after already having lost one person so young and close to us. A month and a half later, we watched our house burned down the day after Thanksgiving. Someone had stayed up all night playing games and saw the spark from the outlet…otherwise my brother, dad, and I wouldn’t be here today. A year later, one of my close friends died in a car accident, and the year after that I had a nervous breakdown. In 2013 we lost my grandfather, the only one who was alive while I was old enough to get to know him. 

Every time I get caught up in a difficult situation, I try to put it in perspective. I don’t participate in the “others have it worse” mentality, because that will always be trivially true. No one’s struggles should be minimized and marginalized because of an obscure and biased ranking system. I think about my own experiences with respect to my own past. I am grateful to be able to do this and be able to be empathetic to others. I am thankful my parents and brother are doing well and that I have a friendship structure that has withstood the test of time. I hope that my romantic life pans out and instead of trying to adhere to some sort of weird societal standards, I can keep the person I’ve come to fit with like a puzzle-piece. I think being more secure in myself and being willing to speak another’s love language will help. Right now we’re both so busy, so I hope after the next couple of weeks are over I don’t lose someone I really care about.

But if you just came here for a bulleted list of things I’m thankful for: 

  • My family and I are getting along better than we have in years
  • My friends are amazing and supportive and everything I dreamed of having when I was younger
  • Z having a smile that makes me smile
  • Kitty cats :3 because kitty cats
  • My job pays bills
  • My car still runs
  • I live in a nice and secure apartment
  • My hair is back to my natural color (light brown vs. black)

November Updates

November is almost completely over! Maybe I should wait and do a “November Roundup,” but I’m gonna jump the gun here and just do a regular one. I have recovered from feeling and looking like I belong in an eighteenth century novel (coughing into a bloody rag while shaking my fist at the youths). I need to call them Monday (after the holidays), but I think I found a dentist who is in network with both my dental and medical insurance. Hopefully that’d knock my cost down from $2350 to a maximum of $600. I’m going to try to just get my power steering pump replaced instead of just replacing the whole car. I’d like to get my wisdom teeth taken care of and my Discover card paid off before looking at buying a new car.

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  • Read Ender’s Shadow & Shadow of the Hegemon
  • Finish one bear for the Mother Bear Project
  • Budget attack & debt repayment plan
  • CLEAN AND UNPACK MY ENTIRE ROOM

I’m so good at this Thanksgiving thing, right? Nah, jk. I’m gonna post all about that tomorrow. I only have to be thankful that one day! THAT’S IT RIGHT? I kid, I kid. Even my worst days are better than others’ best days sometimes. I’ve begun my bear. I chose a deep, flecked brown and am going to do a red dress with black and white striped leggings. I got to see Z for the first time since the beginning of November. He has such a genuine smile, it makes me smile to think of it. I hope that once the clustercuss that is the end of the semester ends we’ll be able to see each other a little more. Plus I am working on a pretty cool Christmas gift 😉

Since I’ve set more reasonable goals for this month, I’ve done a better job of making positive progress. Go me!

November Updates

Two weeks into November…though it’s suddenly as if time has slowed to crawling. I’ve spent most of it sleeping due to sadness and sickness. I have what I hope is just a very bad sinus infection, though at this point I cannot even talk (great thing, since I’m a teacher, amirite?). I went to my appointment for my wisdom teeth, but the facility my dentist referred me to isn’t in network with my health or dental insurance, so I would have to pay the full $2350 up front (not happening). My power steering is completely out, but I am having more luck on that front. There are a lot of cars in my price range that meet my requirements, so I’m hoping to have something new to me to drive by the end of November. It helps that I’ll have my Christmas bonus by then too 😛

  • Read Ender’s Shadow & Shadow of the Hegemon
  • Finish one bear for the Mother Bear Project
  • Stick to a keto diet (excluding Thanksgiving Day)
  • Budget attack & debt repayment plan
  • CLEAN AND UNPACK MY ENTIRE ROOM

I’ve made some progress on my goals for once and have changed a few. With the way things have been, I haven’t been able to handle eating properly, so I’m not sticking to a keto diet. It’s pretty much the “eat if I can” diet…but I’ve lost 8 lbs so there’s that. I’ve cleaned my room completely, so the only thing I really have left to do is put away the rest of my clothes. I’ve been crocheting a scarf in a colorway called “Sunrise” for a friend of mine. I also have a hat to finish for Z, whom I miss dearly and think of often.

I need to begin working on the bear for the MBP, but I want to pick good colors and ideas. It may seem like I’m overthinking it, but I want to pick colors that aren’t whitewashed for the bears. But…if you’re going to make something for a charity, shouldn’t a lot of thought go into it? One of my best friends is moving back to Louisiana. I’m sorry his foray into living a few states away didn’t work out, but I know his family is happy to have him back, and it’s nice to be able to chat face-to-face.

In my current state, all I’m good for is coloring, sleeping, and reading. Though one of my cats licked my nose this morning to wake me up, so that was sweet. Weekend, pls come faster, and Friday the 13th, pls don’t be terrible.

i do not want to have you
to fill the empty parts of me
i want to be full on my own

i want to fill so complete
i could light a whole city
and then
i want to have you
cause the two of
us combined
could set
it on fire

Rupi Kaur

NovemberNovember. Month Eleven. 2015 has almost come to a close. I’ve felt like I was flying by the seat of my pants for the entire year…so far. Maybe November/December will settle down (even though I’m writing a goal post on the 6th…but that’s neither here nor there 😛 ). I’m doing the keto diet from this point on through the end of November. Will break it for Thanksgiving because reasons, but that’s the only allowed exception. #crying

Hopefully this month will be wonderful and full of deliciousness. I mean, it is full of a week-long vacation (really 9 days vs. 7). It’ll be time to relax, time to hang out with people I care about, and also potentially get my wisdom teeth out. I’ve got some big expenses potentially coming up (e.g. wisdom teeth, “new” car, catching up on debts, new phone,…) But here are some more things I’d like to do!

  • Read Ender’s Shadow & Shadow of the Hegemon
  • Finish one bear for the Mother Bear Project
  • Stick to a keto diet (excluding Thanksgiving Day)
  • Budget attack & debt repayment plan
  • CLEAN AND UNPACK MY ENTIRE ROOM

Not too unreasonable right? But then again it never is.